FIRSTS..........

I love seeing my kids "firsts".  I love looking back and remembering exactly where we were or what we were doing when Nathan took his first steps or Katie stood up by herself for the first time or how Ana just last week said bye,bye to me for the first time when I was leaving.

This past week I read and reread the info (it makes me feel closer to him!!) we got from Ezekiel's orphanage and then it dawned on me how many "firsts" we have missed.  After commiting to him we got to ask up to 10 questions to the director.  There was no guarantee they would answer them but they did and they also gave us some extra info.  I was thrilled but then I got to thinking .......

 One of the last things they wrote was how excited he was recently when they transitioned him into a "big boy bed".   Oh I so clearly remember both N and K's first night in their big beds.  We have pictures of Nathan just laying in his bed with a huge smile on his face.  I wanted that memory with him.  I want to go through the crying nights with teething...... I wanted to see him stand for the first time.......  I wanted to see those first steps......  I wanted to hear him say mama the first time......  I feel like everyday it takes us to get there is one more day I might miss another first and it kills me. 

I pray that somehow he can feel our love across that huge ocean and that this next year flies by!!!  Hold on little guy we are coming and we will be just as excited as you for every new first you have!