1 year ago......

So this is a bit late but on Sat my little one turned 1 yrs old.......

1 year ago I sat in a hospital bed playing cards (yep it was a very easy delivery!!) and just waited to meet this little one.  I remember having the same little butterflies in my stomach I had with my first delivery.  I was over the moon excited to meet this new precious little girl that we were given.    I remember being so grateful that I didn't have to wait too long to see that gorgous sweet face that I already loved beyond words.

I look back and think how I would relive the experience of delivery over and over again....I know crazy woman but to see your child for the first time is to experience every emotion at once. 

~anticipation
~pain
~fear of the known and unknown
~pure joy
~amazement at this beautiful life
~true unconditional LOVE
~peace......knowing that whatever would lie ahead of you, you will do and face together

This past year Analeigh added so much joy to our family!!  She is just a bundle of energy and her laugh and smile are contagious.

So for all that you give us Ana we are grateful.  Life here would not be the same without you!!  You are a ray of sunshine every morning.  We love you!!

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I think of "Ezekiel's" mom.  When she saw his beautiful face did she know she would have to give him up?  Did she have any time to enjoy his laugh and smile?  Does she think of him now and wonder where he is or how he is doing?  It is so hard for me to imagine not having my children with me.  I couldn't imagine not having an amazing extended family to support me and husband who loves me and our children more then himself.  My heart truly breaks for women in countries where their society doesn't accept some children.  Where they are forced to give up part of their heart.  I won't ever know why his mom choice to not keep him.  If it was self motivated or if she had no support but I will still continue to pray for her.